FORGIVENESS IS FOR YOU

I was sitting and chatting to a colleague today and had spent sometime meditating over the weekend about what I wanted to share this week.

We got to talking about people and how sometimes, people are bound by things that they have no control over, but it in turn becomes a blocker of Joy in their lives and the lives of those around them.

I wanted to say this , there may be something in your life that has caused you to be crippled spiritually, emotionally and mentally. It's something that even though you smile and look like you are doing just fine, you are dying inside. It's something that you know is eating at you and you know it but can't let it go.

My question for you is WHY don't you let it go. I had a very traumatic experience some years ago and had someone try and rape me and even though they did not succeed, they left me shaken , confused and crushed. I remember being so bitter because, I told someone who was meant to defend me and they never did a thing, In fact it felt as if i was wrong.

I thank God for all the angels in my life that God has given me , in the form of siblings, friends and colleagues, who encouraged me and reassured me it was not my fault. I smiled but I will never forget how BITTER I felt internally. The more I pretended to be alright the MORE BITTER I felt!

I then read somewhere that 'BITTERNESS IS LIKE DRINKING , POISON AND EXPECTING THE OTHER PERSON TO DIE'. That really hit home for me, and I made the CHOICE to walk on the path of recovery and ALLOW myself to he HAPPY!

I did the following things for myself:

1. I reminded myself of the good things that I have to offer to this world.
2. I reminded myself that even though something happened to try and destroy me that , I could choose how to react.
3. I decided not to live this life BROKEN and not allow my Joy to be stolen.
4. I reminded myself that the Joy of the Lord is my strength.

Ultimately I know that forgiveness is not for the other person , as we think but it is ultimately for YOU, because you get set FREE..

So when you see me smile its not fake it is real.

Stay positive and choose to walk in freedom for your sake and generations to come.